Monday, 24 March 2008

It's the most wonderful time of the year...

No, not Christmas... it's coming round to that time of year where odd English translations are celebrated, national costumes ridiculed and maps of Europe consulted as people ask "Where the hell are San Marino, Azerbaijan and Belarus?"

Yes, you've guessed it, the 53rd Eurovision Song Contest is less than 2 months away, and now that all the 43 participating countries have selected their entries, I've been scouring YouTube to see what there is to look forward to... and also where I can have my toilet breaks.

The Contest has changed a little this year - there are now two Semi-Finals on the 2oth and 22nd of May, followed by the Final on Saturday 24th May. And it's all coming from Beograd/Belgrade in Serbia - yes that country on the news all the time at the moment due to Kosovo's little declaration of independance... should make for a calm show huh?

There has been an underlying fear in my mind this year as the Contest has traditionally been held the week before Medical School Finals. Luckily though, the Contest is after my dreaded exams, meaning it's pretty likely our living room will be filled to bursting again this year.

10 countries from each Semi will go through to the final, and so I'm going to show you some of my favourites from each... let's see if my preferences match with those of the totally non-politically biased views of Europe.

Semi-Final 1 - Tuesday 20th May


02 - Israel: Bo'az Ma'uda "The Fire In Your Eyes"

Okay, so perhaps I like this cos Bo'az himself is a pretty picture... I definitely don't think Hebrew lends itself to singing very much.


07 - Azerbaijan: Elnur & Samir "Day After Day"

I always like the new countries' entries, they really go for it. And so here is the Azeri song, which could not be more camp if it tried really - a devil and a bleach-blond angel singing something or other to rock music, it's just brilliant.


08 - Slovenia: Rebeka Dremelj "Vrag naj vazme" (To Hell With It)

As Slovenia is my favourite country in the world, I have to like this song even if it is a bit duff. Well, it's not all bad, but it's safe to say Eurovision 2009 won't be in Ljubljana.


10 - Poland: Isis Gee "For Life"

Well after a quick break during Norway's typically nice entry (read: dull), here is what I think could be a winner actually. This song reminds me of Shiri Maymon (Israel) a few years ago, it's a really beautiful ballad sung by a blond with a good pair of lungs on her (read: a cracking rack). This is quite possibly my favourite song this year.


11 - Ireland: Dustin the Turkey "Irelande Douze Pointes"

This joke entry featuring a turkey puppet (where else but Eurovision?!) is actually alright - I like the name check of all the countries at the end especially.


12 - Andorra: Gisela "Casanova"


Andorra have never made the final... this probbaly won't turn the tide but it is delightfully europop with a ridiculous beat... it sounds like a Cascada album track.


14 - Armenia: Sirusho "Qele Qele"


I think I have a weakness for these Transcaucasian countries.


18 - Russia: Dima Bilan "Believe"


This hottie came 2nd in the Contest in 2006, and whilst this song isn't as good, this guy is an artist in his own right - it's the equivalent of the UK sending someone like Justin Timberlake to Belgrade.


And shockingly, I don't actually like Greece's entry this year... but maybe I'm smarting cos they didn't choose the far hotter Kostas Martakis...

Kostas Martakis

Well, that's the first Semi-Final... and as you can see I like a fair few in it! Which is a bit gutting as it's the Semi-Final the UK doesn't have a vote in (we only get to vote in the second semi on Thursday).
My run-down of the Second Semi-Final in the next blog...

Saturday, 23 February 2008

I often think that I'm not a lucky person, you know, because I never win a crappy prize at a raffle or I've only ever won a tenner on the lottery.

But I've done okay this week, I've got my first choice job at Bolton, to start in August! Dr Pillon (that's me) will be working in Breast Surgery, Complex Medicine, Psychiatry, Paediatrics, A&E and General Practice for two years in Britain's largest town. "Just" got to earn that MB ChB qualification now eh?

I've just finished my General Surgery placement at Trafford General. I've never wanted to be a surgeon but I actually had an ace time at Trafford. I've always liked placements there, it's a really nice little hospital and it's been really great being part of it for 2 months. Despite the 8am starts, I've had a lot of fun with the house officers and I've even done stuff like night shifts (which is perhaps evidence of "Finals Craziness" kicking in). I even gained a new nickname "Sam", which I might keep for future surgical jobs. And I've made some new friends: Nadia, Su, Lucy, Sally, Aki & Sarah/Jack. And of course, Dr Sarah G (aka The Boss) herself - I will miss being part of our dynamic duo!
On my last day yesterday, I went back to Day Surgery, where I did my first ever placement. It was vasectomy afternoon, and in front of all the nervous looking men, I picked up Sheila, a health care assistant who first looked after me on my wide-eyed first day. It was quite moving actually - they've seen me grow up over the past three years and I hope I will still get chances to pop back and say hi.
I left my 4 month stint in Blackburn feeling pretty confident about the whole junior doctor role, and at Trafford I've had the chance to take that further and I'm pretty proud of where I am now. It's odd to think that I was seriously considering leaving medicine 6 months ago; this year has kind of brought things together for me.

My next and last block will be in Liasion Psychiatry in North Manchester/Oldham. It's my elective block, so I have to explain it with faux embarrassment as I "should" really be on a beach somewhere pretending to learn. But actually, I'm really excited about getting the chance to try out the career I want to do for two months, it's pretty unique!

Anyway, what have I been up to this week?

I've been mostly listening to:

I've been mostly watching:

I've been mostly reading about:

I've been mostly spending money on:
  • Some lovely shoes from Dolcis at The Trafford Centre thanks to their closing down!
  • things at the DVLA webiste: road tax, change of address, new driving license, the list is surprisingly long

Anyway, I'm done now. Goodnight

Sunday, 10 February 2008

Okay. So my temperament is such that I get pretty emotional about things. Nothing new.


I wasn't really prepared for what happened... even with the minor warning the BBC puts out. I've just watched this week's Casualty. Now, I don't want anyone thinking I'm some nut who loves this show in a disturbing way, and I know I've recently blogged about it.

But that's because it's some incredible television... actually, it's better than that description suggests... it's fantastic and believable drama worthy of more praise than it will ever probably get.


This week was the story of Ruth Winters, an F2 doctor who hanged herself, told from her diary leading up to her hanging. Raw is good word to describe the episode.


http://www.bbc.co.uk/drama/casualty/storyupdates/index.shtml?20080209


I'm not really embarrassed to admit that I was proper crying by the end of the programme. I was actually cut up. Ruth was an excellent doctor, perhaps a bit cold, who pushed herself too hard. She's had a shit life. But she's a good person (slash fictional character, whatever!).
And Georgia Taylor, the actress, did a great job at playing her.


But good drama makes you emotional not just because it's good, it's because it hits you personally, and makes you think about yourself.
And you know what, I'm really scared. I've been matched to a Foundation Programme in Bolton from August. I'll be the kind of doctor Georgia Taylor is pretending to be. But I'm going to be doing it for real.
And I'm not supposed to let on that I'm scared. The medical culture is such that I must appear brave and confident at all times. It's not the done thing to let your mask slip, to admit you're wrong. Indeed, there are certainly people who, if reading this, would be absolutely thrilled because my seeming incompetence helps them propel up the ladder. I guess medicine isn't unique in this way, most jobs require competitive staff in order that the best progress and make the company or business strong.

And my problem is that this way of life just isn't very me. I spent the first part of my twenties pretending things were okay and smiling when I wasn't happy because I didn't want to admit I could have got it wrong. I let myself be walked all over by someone who didn't really care for me at all, but happily let me care for them. And it's a lonely feeling when you can't be yourself. And I don't I want to repeat that experience for the rest of my working life, pretending that all is okay.
I'm not Ruth...and I'm not planning on hanging myself. But I'm going to face the same pressures as she did, and I'm not really sure how I'm going to deal with them.

...

Well... if you've read through you might feel like I did after watching Virgin Media ask me if I wanted to end the Catch Up TV Showing. So let's break the mood with a Paris Hilton video. :-p

Cute dog.




Monday, 7 January 2008

Work To Rule

I've just watched this Saturday's (5-Jan-2008) episode of Casualty via my handy Virgin Media On Demand. It was brilliant. So brilliant in fact, that I'm compelled to write about it now.




Just to recap a little...

A few weeks ago Charlie, a charge nurse in the Emergency Department of over 30 years, and Tess, another charge nurse were forced to choose between themselves who should be made redundant... Charlie ended up leaving post, much to the dismay of the staff.

Abs, another nurse, whilst fond of both his seniors, was seriously pissed that Charlie had left, and asked his union to support a strike. they did not, so he asked all the ED staff to follow policy to the letter and "Work To Rule" - this meant following their contracts to the letter (i.e. no unpaid overtime, no duties they weren't insured for and taking breaks as recommended)

As a result, the ED was seriously overstretched, and one doctor chose to blame Abs, saying he endangered patients.

And this was the brilliant bit.


Abs then made an impassioned speech about how he was constantly expected to work outside his contract. By taking breaks he was legally compelled to take, by not attending road accidents he wasn't insured to attend and by working to the rules supposedly in a nurse's contract, he said that he was indeed endangering lives. And that perhaps he should resign.
"But I won't." he said, "Because I want to be a good nurse."

"Why is it that we're supposed to have the best health service in the world, but it's run like a dodgy backstreet garage?"


Now... of course Casualty is a BBC drama, not a real-life documentary. But Abs' speech struck a chord with me.

I honestly don't have one F1/F2 doctor friend that doesn't have to work outside their contracted hours on a daily basis. Is it that they're lazy or incompetent? It's unlikely. There's just too much work to be done that simply doesn't fit into the contract.

A more senior doctor friend I have works on shift-rota that requires 14 doctors to work but only employs 11, and thus requires overtime from all staff, every day, every week. No effort has been made to fill these 3 vacant full-time posts, by the way.

And let's not start on nurses. I've worked as a health care assistant, so have a fair idea of how long things take. And it's rare that I go on a ward and see enough nurses to be able to cover patient's basis needs.

So what is this a rant about? I think the NHS is pretty good but of course not without its problems. I don't think I have enough experience to know how to deal with them, so I'm not going to try here.

But I do know that doctors or nurses are often cited as being incompetent or lazy. And the NHS is often criticised and rarely praised. It's used as a battleground for politicians.

My beef is with the attitude that NHS workers have developed a culture around themselves that requires them to work unpaid hours just to maintain patient safety. The culture that makes you feel guilty for being ill because you know your colleagues will be unable to cover for your absence. The culture that encourages you to think that by not pushing yourself up to your limits on nearly every day, you are responsible for endangering patient safety.

So what, you might say? What's an extra 30 minutes a day, with no breaks and a 20 minute lunch? Well, it's nearly 6 hours unpaid a week... that's a lot to ask of all your staff that other businesses wouldn't get away with.

To be a healthworker requires a lot of dedication. You agree to give yourself to the job in a way that few other professions do (perhaps the Army is a good comparison) - but you shouldn't have to agree to give your life away to save money that could employ someone to ease that burden.

And I really thank the BBC for making a drama that shows just how true this is.

You can watch the episode on BBC iPlayer for the next week, and a catch up clip on the show website.

Tuesday, 1 January 2008

Two Thousand and Eight

Happy New Year!

I was going to start this blog by seeing how well I'd done on achieving my 2007 Resolutions... but apparently I did not make any... or if I did... I forgot them. Oops.

So what's up for 2008? I got asked what my resolutions were going to be last night, and I said I wasn't going to bother because I always break them. But that's rather defeatist isn't it, so let's make that number one... stay positive! A lot of people only really see the smiley Seb but I can be a bit of a grump sometimes, so I'm going to pledge to be all Pollyanna and look on the bright side.

Something I also always say is "get fit". And I'm not fat or anything, but I could definitely do more than I do now. So let's set an acheivable goal and work from there... I'm going to go for a run every week.

I'm also going to make better use of my Orange phone contract. I get about a zillion free minutes I never use, I didn't even set up a Magic Number til a fortnight ago and
I do not religiously go to the cinema every Wednesday. So expect calls asking to go to the AMC!

Also, I'm going to pledge to give money to the LGF (Lesbian and Gay Foundation) in Manchester once/if I get a job in August. This is partly to satisfy my friend Rachel who works very hard there and is always trying to get me to sign up, but also because it's a great charity that does a lot and doesn't have a lot of ways that it can earn money.

And, let's have 5 resolutions. This last one is rather up to fate who I hope is listening/reading (whatever). Can we sort me out with a man this year please? A really nice one, with a lovely smile (own teeth essential), who not only likes me, but I like him as well. Who will put up with a slight Eurovision obsession*, a near-constant laugh and a rather talkative nature.

Come on then 2008, it's gonna be gr-eat (that rhymes btw)

*Can I just take this moment to point out the trauma that is the fact that the Eurovision Song Contest 2008 takes place in the week leading up to my finals - how unfair is that?!

Tuesday, 18 December 2007

My Happy(ish) Endings

Well it's been a week of endings... let's take a look.

After 16 weeks of living in Blackburn, my time is up. Bizarrely, I've had a great time. I really didn't expect to... but it's been a blast, and I've made some great new friends and dare I say it... I actually can see myself as a doctor now. Which is saying something, as I was pretty sure I was going to quit when I started this final year. So a big thanks to the doctors who I've worked with over the past few months - especially Munro Donald, Damien Lynch, Jenny MacDowall, Annalise Brown, Kate Hooks, Ash Dharmalingum, John Brockbank & Adam Matson.
My time in Blackburn has really made me think about where I want to do my Foundation Years, and also what I want to do after that. I've actually ended up realising I quite like medicine... so I'm now really looking forward to my elective because it should help firm things up!

As for my first job, I'll be ranking my choices in a few weeks, and assuming I'm in the NorthWest, my favourite jobs are in East Lancs, Blackpool, Bolton, Barrow and Rochdale, but there's still a lot to think about. I really want to have a psychiatry block, minimal surgery blocks, and ideally some paediatrics. I really really don't want Trauma and Orthopaedics. Let's see what my score is in January!

And so I've said goodbye to Blackburn but I've hinted at other losses thhis weekend... well it has not been a great time where TV talent shows go. Same Difference came third in The X-Factor Final, whilst Gethin Jones was knocked out of Strictly Come Dancing on Sunday. Oh well... I'm not bothered. HRNK! What a lie, I was pretty gutted. My friend's sister who I've never met was worried about me... so I think my recurring reality TV obsession might have reared its head.

Anyway, here are some videos of them to remind me of the good times! Annoyingly, "I Don't Feel Like Dancing" keeps getting deleted from You Tube's Same Difference repertoire - but for the moment, there are enough people uploading it that it crops up every now and again!

I wonder if SD will be cheap enough by September so I can book them for my birthday?! NAd then I could have a "My Super Sweet 16th... well 25th" type tantrum if I can't have them.

Breaking Free


Nothing's Gonna Stop Us Now


And now for some of Geth's finest moments...

Waltz - "If I Were a Painting"


Salsa


And they're all on the BBC website which is alright... but more of Geth please. And because they haven't...here are some of mine...










PS - If you see this woman in the street, or perhaps warbling at the top of her lungs somewhere, feel free to maybe trip her up or throw something at her. If this makes no sense to you... read here...


IC Wales

Sunday, 2 December 2007

Preparations

Two weeks left at Blackburn and it's kinda sad. I've made a load of new friends and I can honestly say I've not really been this close to medics in my whole time at Uni. I'm really going to miss living in the House of Horrors and wandering about Blackburn. But I'm mainly going to miss stuff like going to Tesco with Rachel, comparing Yetunde to popstars, (not) playing Terry with Jordan and hearing Igor's phlegm wake me up.
But enough reminiscing - there's only 10 working days to get lots done!

Just worth noting that Gethin Jones got 39/40 for his waltz in Strictly Come Dancing yesterday - he was more gorgeous than I've ever seen. Having said that, I actually think Matt should win because his performances just seem better on the whole. I'm at the stage I get to in Reality shows where I realise how attached I've become and that I need to prepare myself to let the show go! Although I seriously do want to start ballroom dancing, I really do! Any takers?

My main dilemma this week is what to do about Christmas. The last 2 years I've bought "gifts" from oxfamunwrapped.com but I've read some opinion articles which have made me feel bad about this; i.e. that you shouldn't foist charity onto people. But I do still think that they are nice gifts and for the £5-£10 budget I have for each person, a lot more satisfying than some crap I've found on the high street. I need to decide what to do soon!

This week I have mostly been:

discovering:
Custard Apple Fruit/Sitaphal
Nintendo Wii
Rheumatology quirks
How not to flood the engine of your car by doing what an annoying neighbour says
How to play mobile phone companies off one another

listening to:
Girls Aloud - Tangled Up
Emma Bunton - A Girl Like Me
Darren Hayes - This Delicate Thing We've Made
Dubstar - Goodbye
Craig David - Slicker Than Your Average

watching:
Season 4 of Six Feet Under: I think this might be my favourite season, there are some great Ruth & Bettina stories.

YouTubing lots of:

Serebro - Dyshi
Serebro were Russia's Eurovision 2007 - but this video is just amazing and the song quite haunting. though I don't know what it's about so it might be about kittens or something.


Dannii Minogue vs Jason Nevins - Touch Me Like That
The wonder of Dannii's immobile forehead doesn't distract from the fact that this is pretty good.


D'Nash - Amanda
D'Nash were Spain's Eurovision 2007 entry (yep, another one), but they're kinda cute (ish)


Ordinary Boys - I Luv U

Tuesday, 6 November 2007

Well it's been 6 months and 1 day since I last blogged.

There's a story there... someone didn't like what I wrote about them and kicked off. So I suppose it's true when they say that the truth hurts - and she really is a miserable cow!

Anyway, I kind of fell out of the habit, summer came and went and I started final year of Medicine which has kind of taken over really. And so here I am, blogging because that's easier than doing what I should really be doing.

Perhaps I should explain. I'm currently on my second placement of four in Royal Blackburn Hospital, based on a Gastroenterology ward. And right now, this minute, I'm in the 24-hour library, with 6 of my fellow final years, as we all desparately try to complete our application forms for Foundation Training - our doctor jobs for the next two years.
The form we have to fill in might perhaps scare patients if they saw how their doctors had got their jobs.

As an example:

Describe one example from your own clinical experience that has increased your understanding of the importance of team working. What was your role and contribution to the team? What have you learned and how will you apply this to your foundation training? (8 points/150 words)

The questions are all like this and what I find most difficult is the 150 word limit. If you read the question, there are actually five separate components to answer and so about 30 words, or 2-3 sentences each.

Those who know my love of talking will understand the trauma this form has caused me. Never before have I had to be so ruthless with superfluous adjectives. And I personally am frustrated that to really display your acheivemnts is really hard without freedom to describe them, and so I imagine that most of the 1000s of applicants will have very similar answers, devoid of personality, but full of buzz words like "motivate", "negotiate" and "euthanise".

Well, maybe not that last one.

Anyway, I'm otherwise having a right laugh in Blackburn (anyone googling that phrase might be surprised to find it has a hit), living in the staff residence with some great people. I'm actually really going to miss being here, with the people I've met when I have to leave at Christmas. We had a great German-themed Oktoberfest party (which pleasingly generated complaints from the lower floors of the block) a few weeks back, and future plans include a "Communist" party - dressed in grey, no music, copious vodka.

Back in Manchester, wehre I usually return at weekends, I'm now living with Ruth and Hannah, and we are all so busy we have yet to manage to all go out for dinner together, but we regularly congregate round the stairs to rapidly exchange details of our lives.

That's probably enough now, I'd be better gently weaning myself back into blogging, so I'll leave with some links to songs that I am YouTubing more than is healthy (and I've yet to even mention Gethin Jones on Strictly Come Dancing)

Leona Lewis - Bleeding Love


Same Difference - Reach (they are so happy its lovelyscary)


Jentina - Mysterious

Saturday, 5 May 2007

Another fine mess



http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KuZ9k7ADknY

Here's a few things I should be doing:

  • Writing an SSC report about old ladies falling over
  • Creating a proforma to help audit how clinicians assess autistic spectrum disorders
  • Starting the Student Pride list of things to do
  • Revising some things for Progress Test
  • Tidying my room
  • LGBT Handbook
  • Sitting out in the sun
  • Sorting out bills
  • Having some lunch

And so on.

How often do I write a blog about what I haven't done?! I wish I had the motivation to do things in the daytime - why does it take til about 9pm before I kick into gear?

Oh well, there's more dossing to be done before the day is out!

Thursday, 3 May 2007

LGBT Spring Conference 2007

NUS LGBT Spring Conference
Birmingham University Guild of Students
27-29 April 2007

And so begins what could well be my last NUS LGBT Conference report - I enjoy and gain so much from attending these conferences, and so it is with half a tear in my eye that I begin a recount of the weekend.

Friday
After a disappointingly short journey to Birmingham we rocked up at Birmingham University Guild of Students (BUGS) and registered ourselves before a quick roam about the quite lovely Birmingham campus, complete with massive clock tower.
After some Conference Training, we kicked off with a great talk by Finn Grieg of Sci:Dentity on trans issues within the LGBT movement. Finn was a great speaker and encouraged us all to speak with trans people as the best way of understanding more about this fairly misunderstood yet massively important issue.

A few dull reports later we moved to Regional Meetings, and it was nice they were early on in the weekend to aid with networking and making useful friends! The room wasn’t particularly conducive to discussion, and we ended up splitting into smaller “North West”, “Yorkshire” and “Geordies” groups to discuss and plan meetings we could do together. Alan Bailey and I reeled off some stuff about Student Pride and it was agreed that we would make this our Regional Event. We talked about campaigns together, including helping local FE institutions and the success of Liverpool institutions collaborating for their Donation not Discrimination campaign effort.
Overall the meeting okay but I think it could have been improved with a bit more structure and clear leadership. Whilst it was useful and necessary to split into smaller groups, it was a shame because we had almost all already met within those groups. However, it was good for me to be able to advertise for Student Pride to the group of people most likely to come (www.studentpride.co.uk)!

The afternoon/evening session consisted of Open Place LGBT Officer and Committee Reports. It was a bit weird that Scott wasn’t there to read his support but his excellently crafted speech was read by fellow Scot James Alexander. The room cheered loudly for Scott in recognition of his hard work and extra-ordinary efforts in the past year, as well as in support for him as he recuperates from an operation.

We discussed two motion “zones” that evening: Education and Welfare & Student Rights.

The first zone - Welfare & Student Rights - was reasonably sedate. Motions that were almost totally supported included ones about promoting sexual health and tackling hate crime.
We then came to an important motion which I strongly believe in, entitled Gender Neutral Toilets & Trans Rights. I’m thrilled to report that NUS LGBT is now mandated to help push for consideration of trans issues when it comes to provision of toilet facilities. This should hopefully help us bring this about in Manchester over the next few years.
Another area which took a long time to debate regarded the opposition of fascism & racism. This motion was submitted entirely by NEC/NUS LGBT Committee Members and as such, the debate was largely between a group of people who all know and no doubt regularly antagonise one another. Others did get involved, but their impromptu speeches looked amateur in contrast with the polished ones delivered by the newly dubbed “conference celebrities”.
The debate ultimately (and perhaps inevitability) became so heated that delegates were asked not to shout at Conference floor.
It was then, perhaps with some amusement, that we fairly easily raced through a motion to work to reduce the scale of “body fascism” rife within the LGBT community. I for one am a strong believer in the power of the media and it possibilities for both damage and benefit. A well chosen photo can so easily alter a person’s viewpoint that the change in self-image is almost subconscious.

With a few deep breaths we moved on to the second zone. This was my least favourite - Education. It’s my least favourite as I feel the debates tend to be more about wider student issues as opposed to LGBT-focussed discussions - and this shows in the number of NEC (National Executive Committee - the NUS ruling body) members who speak on these issues of which they are passionate about. It’s not that the issues aren’t important, but the debates can often feel like a rehearsal for larger NUS-based debates. In any case, we affirmed the campaigns’ dedication to the eradication of homophobic bullying, before moving on to a lengthy debate about the future of funding education.
My personal view was that the notion of “free [HE] education for all” is outdated. I don’t think it is possible to increase the numbers of HE students without introducing costs to those students. I don’t think £3000 a year is a bad deal when the actual cost of that degree is more than triple that amount (or, for my Medicine degree, 16 times more…)
I do, however, believe that the Student Loan available is woefully out of touch with the living costs required by today’s students, but I don’t see why a system of loans only repayable (at a phenomenal “real” rate of 0% interest) when a decent salary is earned is unfair.
Nevertheless, as my own rant shows, this debate is largely about something that affects ALL students and not really LGBT students. And I feel that as NUS LGBT students we should hope that the NUS could more effectively campaign for such issues rather than the far smaller NUS LGBT organisation.

The evening was spent getting some alcohol and preening ourselves at the hotel before heading back to BUGS for the evening social where I had fun chatting to lots of different people, and it was nice evening to catch up with old friends from Liverpool Hope, UCL, QMUL and elsewhere. Other highlights included watching Will from UCLAN & Laura from QMUL get more and more off their faces, and Lee from Steering Committee fall into a flower bed. I remember skipping down a main road with Will at one point before we tried to go climb the Birmingham Uni tower, before we got lost (even though it is massive). Excellent.

Saturday
After our croissants and juice at the Etap, Saturday began with Women-only reports, before we concluded a few of the debates from the previous night. We then got to go to my favourite bit of Conference, workshops.
Natalie and I had signed up to the Trans workshop the night before, and then, without realising, the other 4 Mancs had done the same after us. As it seemed a little silly to have all 6 of us in the same workshop, we moved to the Feminism workshop instead. The other 2 options were about fighting the BNP, and another about Florence, a lesbian facing deportation back to Sierre Leone.
In all honesty, I wasn’t all that thrilled about going to a workshop about Feminism, but the outcome of the session was that I was pleased to have gone. It was led by Kat Stark, the NUS Women’s Officer, and we had some fascinating group discussions about different feminist ideals. I had bravely outed myself as a non-feminist at the start of the session, and I think this might have given the impression that I think women are subservient to some, but in all honesty I was genuinely interested in just feminism was, considering it different from anti-sexism (how wrong I was). I was pleased that my group got to discuss the statement “GBT men can be feminist but heterosexual men cannot” as we talked a lot about the media’s influence, the nature of interpersonal relationships and how feminism kind of combines the ideas of anti-sexism with a pride of women.
After a mad rush for our lunch bags, we moved into Motions Zone 3, which was my favourite zone: “Strong & Active Unions”.
The first motion in this was about Governance Reform in the NUS LGBT Campaign. We voted to replace Winter Conference with better regional events to strengthen the Campaign, as well as making a commitment to consider Mature Students and ageism within the campaign. It was also affirmed that the NUS LGBT Committee should endeavour to attend as many Fresher’s Events as possible, and mobilise the Campaign early so that it can be promoted at such events.
The next motion was the biggie of Conference and was entitled “Queer Liberation”. The original motion intended to allow self-defining Queer students to attend Conference, and to create a permanent Queer Caucus. An Amendment sought to “clarify” – although stated that “Queer” would include various supposedly-undesirable groups, and so defined Queer as those who were LGBT but chose not to use those words. The debate was rocked throughout with much vocal audience participation (especially from the NEC members – perhaps rather inappropriately), which climaxed in a procedural motion that called for all self-defining Queer students to leave Conference. Once things had settled down, Emma Persky, who had opposed the Amendment, surprisingly changed her mind and then spoke for it. This led to a very confused voting audience! With the Amendment passed, the main motion then passed, but without the two-thirds majority necessary for it to become policy. And so our LGBT Campaign rather timidly works its way to a Queer-er future? Perhaps.

Other motions in the zone that passed were: Better supporting disabled students; working harder to include FE within the campaign; supporting Student Pride (thank God!); and allowing sponsorship from reputable companies.
We unfortunately id not get to discuss two motions regarding Conference Delegations, talking about gender balance and inclusion of non-LGBT delegates.

The next sessions were the elections for the Open Place positions and Steering Committee elections. It was interesting to hear what the candidates had to offer, although it was bit odd that you couldn’t ask questions – audience whispers led to the conclusion that some people weren’t being entirely honest in their manifestos!

After an amusing session in which we were asked to reject the yearly Finance Report to show NUS how woefully wrong their estimates were, we moved to the final motions session.

Motions Zone 4 was “Society & Citizenship”. We discussed motions welcoming the protections offered by the new Goods and Services laws, supporting free childcare in Universities, and our support to the international LGBT campaign.
We also voted to “affirm our commitment to internationalism in the struggle against LGBT oppression”, although a section that called for us to campaign for the withdrawal of troops from Iraq fell.

Saturday ended with the Manchester Cru heading to Nando’s in the BullRing for our dinner as we weren’t too impressed with the free meal provided the previous night. We then got ourselves ready and went for some drinks in Birmingham’s gay area. Jennie and Carly (still rough from the previous night) went home early, whilst Danny and Stuart headed to Nightingales. Natalie and I stayed in the Loft Lounge, drinking cocktails and looking at the fit bar staff, as well as Anthony from Blue and Dr Truman from Eastenders. 5 cocktails later we headed home to dance on the bed before actually going to sleep at something like 5am… oh dear.

Sunday
After pressing “snooze” far too many times, Jennie, Carly, Natalie and me made it into the Guild for the Queer Caucus. This was a really positive experience, and we welcomed the fact that Queer students were now recognised by the LGBT Campaign (even if not quite in the way we all had envisaged or desired). It was affirmed that we would endeavour to build on this and introduce queer activism into the campaign.
We spent the rest of the morning chatting with various other students about what had happened so far, our views on certain motions, and also we Facebooked to the max on the Guild computers.
After lunch, we completed the motions zone 4 debate, and moved onto an excellent session given by Celia Kitzinger and Sue Wilkinson. These two women were married in Canada, and tried to challenge the UK into recognising their marriage as a marriage (and not a civil partnership) - in line with rules for heterosexual marriages made outside of the UK. Their story was fascinating and they succinctly provided us with good arguments as to why we should campaign for equal treatment. The couple received more than one standing ovation for their efforts.

After their session, they then presented the awards for the LGBT societies of the year. It was wonderful to see Liverpool Hope win the HE award. I’ve gotten to know Liverpool Hope over the year and I have really taken a lot from them. A tiny institution with no money, Liverpool Hope has rattled off a massive list of activities that really and truly puts Manchester to absolute shame. If they had our resources, Liverpool Hope could have achieved anything!

The final session was for Emergency Motions - there was a single one submitted by NUS LGBT Steering regarding a change in the way motions were submitted to Conference. It called for future motions to be submitted by Constituent Members rather than individual representatives. After some speeches by NUS representatives (from LGBT Steering, NUS Steering, i.e. Danny, and NEC members) the motion was not passed. I voted this way, because I feel that it would be largely impractical in our Union to follow the rules as specified - we can barely cobble together more than a handful of people to help us with Awareness Week - never mind get groups together to formulate motions!

And so, after some Closing remarks by Claire, we raced off across campus to get our train to New Street, before heading back home to Manchester (via Nando’s in Fallowfield).