It's been a month since I last blogged... I've been getting slack.
My life is probably a lot better now than it has been. I guess I've learnt a bit better how to deal with things and I'm starting to have a life again.
The day-to-day stuff is pretty much the same, though the day passes quicker cos I work with some fantasticaly funny nurses who really make my day... I'm sometimes in near hysteria as we laugh so much, and that's really nice.
I wonder if there will come a time when I truly feel confident that I can do my job well... I suspect that it never totally happens which is why all doctors do neurotic things like call their wards at 11pm because they forgot to check an Xray or something. I did have a run of 8 cannulas inserted first time which I was pretty proud of. I still hate damned procedures though!
I got to work with a different SHO this week and it's been really brilliant, she's amazing because she is so relaxed but gets everything done and ensures we both go home on time having left nothing important to do the next day. I actually quite enjoyed this week of work, and that's a first, so I'm rather pleased.
I recently did some weekend nights which I was totally terrifed of, but ended up really enjoying. I only really feel like a doctor on nights, I feel like I can actually do something useful, and despite the fact it's quite hard, I prefer the challenges because they're more manageable... and probably I like the fact that I don't have to be concerned with the long-term problems of everyone.
I did some crazy stuff that I didn't really think people actually did, like maintain someone's airway for nearly 2 hours whilst we tried to find an intensive care bed. I also did my first chest compressions on a real person, which is a weird experience... especially when you look at the face of the person whose heart you are working for, and realise that you clerked them in a fortnight previously with what you thought was an uncomplicated urinary tract infection and here they are, in a somewhat more serious condition.
But then again, I clerked a woman with a rash that decided 3am on a Saturday was the optimum time to present to A&E cos it was "quite itchy".
And of course, the real bonus of working nights is getting to wear scrubs... and I don't even feel embarrassed saying that I look totally hot in my blues... I got asked out twice on my nights!
In other news...
- I bought the boxset of Heroes to get in on the act and it is literally amazing... I'm waiting for Season 2 now so I can catch up and start watching on BBC. I kept putting it off and ending up missing more and more so I'm chuffed to now understand why everyone was raving about it!
- Now that I'm living like a millionaire (well, it feels like that, finally having a wage), I surprised myself by making a clothes purchase without even looking at the price, cos I knew I would buy it anyway. For anyone that has seen me rummaging through the Primark bargain bin, this may come as shock news, but no fear, I don't think my frivolous spending habit is sustainable, so normal serice will be resumed soon I'm sure.
- I'm off to Spain on Wednesday for 6 days and I can't wait, I'm going to see my best friend Steve in Seville which will be ace. And then Ruth and I are going to large it up in Torremolinos, so it's gonna be an ace week off!
